The Big Issue

My eating habits are whack right now... Though not complaining. But it's probably some sort of post illness thing. It'll wear off in a few days and I'll start eating absolutely everything... Especially in Japan (YAY! Japan!). I totally understand Steph's fear of eating eggs, 'cause I can't deal with them at this time, makes me vomit. So, lately I've been eating toast..... And anything mango related, even though it's not even mango season... I wish it was. And juice, lots of juice! 
Mum wants me to eat this egg omelette thing and fried tofu, I don't want to eat it,  along with this rice porridge with vegetables in it, I can't do it, makes me feel sick, she's going to be very disappointed when she gets home. I'm pretty sure it's been in the fridge for a few days now, euuuhhh. 

So, apparently I'll have to get another blood test once I'm better because just this year I haven't really been my normal healthy self and need to see what the shits wrong with me... :/ I really don't want to get one, what if they're shit because the last ones were from a good hospital, I trust no one with my veins except them! 

Other than that .... YAY JAPAN! I've been lying on the couch all week thinking about it, it's so fucking close! Not sure what clothes to bring! It's Autumn over there but their Autumn's are totally different from ours, I'm thinking maybe our winter's their autumn.... I really hope so (erk, I don't know)! I miss wearing coats and all.

I don't feel like spamming facebook about my first world problems. But it's been 4 days since Harry Potter and I'm still crushed.. I had a nice tear about it for a few days now.

Basically this post is my life for now 'til a month...
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Started reading Philosopher's Stone last night and just the first sentence made my think back to the first day I read it.
Went into my closet (because I haven't come out of it yet /pun) to search for all that stuff/papers that were used for that tape, yes I still had them... Obviously for good reasons, like this moment. Not sure where that tape is though, I sort of want to see it but not.

Hhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh, goodbye imagination land.

God damn it! Kane isn't really having the best life and he's only 9. Fuck!

So from what I've been told, Kane was chased by some maniac kid (young age, not sure how old) with a knife at his school, lunchtime. This freaking kid wasn't even from this school but just decided to do a rampage there! And just so happens Kane was at the wrong place at the wrong time, but he has really good instinct and went running to the office. This happened on Wednesday and I was just told  now. It's fucking scary, and I'm a little shaken up about it, but I did have new shoes that arrived for me to keep me at ease. He's the best kid I've been around and he shouldn't deserve this sort of thing. He was bullied  once at school last year, just because he bumped into a kid by accident.

Anyway, the school was in lockdown until the police came to pick up this kid. I don't know how he got there or why he wasn't even at school and where the hell were his parents?! Just doesn't seem schools are even safe these days... I mean some kid was stabbed at Southport High School  a couple of weeks ago by an outside kid that knew him over some drama I don't know of... 14 years old. THE FUCK!?!

Kane seems okay now, but he's with family, school's a lot different.

EDIT: Ugh! Not to mention that kid that was saved by his brother at the January floods being bashed for being alive or some shit.

I never thought about this, but I think I may have sleep paralysis and I think this morning it happened to me again.
It was weird, I was sleeping or was half asleep because I could hear my dad's Vietnamese radio going off, but I just knocked off into deep sleep and didn't want to open my eyes, and at that moment, I could feel a tingly feeling on my back and then all of the sudden I feel the right side of my hair move with a buzz sound, I was asleep and felt it but didn't want to wake up to it, plus my eyes didn't want to open. Then the tingly feeling came back again, feeling paralyzed, I was sleeping on my side holding on the rail of my bed because when I sleep I tend to want to touch something cold because I get a bit hot up there.

Anyway, the feeling started to annoy me a lot, but I couldn't open my eyes, I was really tired, I couldn't move.
That feeling was still annoying me so I think I started to swing my arm for it to go away, it was a real mission, my arm was heavy, I slightly opened my eyes, and it was like I was tripping balls 'cause once I saw my arms swing it was X5. So, I tried to move myself, it was like the feeling when you're running away from someone in your dream, reeeeallly slow and like you're not moving. My eyes were trying to open and when they did, it still look like was tripping balls, then I got into a position where your knees are on surface and you're all curled up, I'm trying to scream but nothing came out, but I saw some girl, long black hair, the typical haunty type thing and then disappeared.  Somehow got down from the bed, felt dizzy, my eyes could open just a little, and thought I check my hair, some of it was cut off, or buzzed off, so I was like "WTF??!" and then I could open my eyes, then I went to check my bed again, looked under one of my pillows and found these wall staplers and a hot glue gun, there was also my Harry Potter book I was reading, it was ruined, someone wrote on it, but it was messy so I couldn't read it properly.
Then my laptop apppeared on my bed and I grabbed it, 'cause I remembered a dream that I had my laptop on my bed and I moved the mouse, which then ended up hanging from the bed (Some really useless dream but had some sort of significance to this). Anyway, looked at my laptop and all the usb ports and stuff were all sealed with glue and the mouse usb was stuck on the laptop surface. I didn't know how this happened but then I woke up, in the exact position I was in this dream and holding onto the rail.

I've had a few dreams like this as well, where it feels like I'm just sleeping and when I wake up or try to move I can't. Same girl causing crap for me. Only thing different about this one is that somehow I moved from my bed.

Dream? Sleep paralysis? I don't know. But it was strange and I didn't like it.

I've been getting weird dream a lot lately, interesting but weird.

Last night/this morning, I dreamt that the big house across the road had a monster move to half the house and then causing the ground to move and ruin the house next to it, while our driveway was covered in dirt and rubble to the top and all I could think about was my machines and patterns suck in the garage.

The baby panda's from last week scared the shit out of me.

Now, it's off to the garage to sew a formal dress!

I haven't posted in a while....Like a long while. Now, I just realised how long I haven't really spoken to my sister. Anyway, enough of that jibber-jabber.

My so called "work life" is getting a little bit better.
1. I've received an email from a lady that is interested in selling my items I have on etsy to go on her online store, it's not big but it's something, I'm generally very lazy when it comes to finding boutiques that would sell my stuff, especially living here on the Gold Coast and also markets. Reason being for the markets is that I'm afraid no one will buy anything, thus me losing profit just for renting the stall.
I'll just say that Queensland ain't ready fo' dis shit!

2. I've got in internship with Kitten D'Amour, unpaid work experience, but I don't really care 'cause it's Kitten D'Amour! I sent out my resume to be one of their sewing machinist but didn't receive anything back for that, so I emailed them about their internship program they have available, thank conscience I did so! 

This, in the duration of two days... I don't expect anything else after this.

And now I'll leave you with how I feel..


Edit: Weee!!! I just received my woven labels, they look awesome!!!

 

( Stupid story I forgot to cut. )

 

I haven't updated in yonks.


Saw this in a blog and was gobsmacked, still am.




( Moo-oar! )

Little creeped out that this is the second option....

...That is all.